Some collected thoughts on one of the few things in life I can honestly say
I do well: bleeding. Yep, sad but true, I think my specialist subject has to
be bleeding, specifically in reference to letting certain fucked-up individuals
drink my blood. I don't know why they want to, and I don't care either, I just
enjoy it so. So here we have some ramblings split into three categories: firstly
the cutting itself, secondly the reasoning behind the whole donorship thing
(both why I do it and why other people do it) and thirdly the repercussions
PART I: THE CUTTING ITSELF
This is all compiled from personal experiences, you may disagree, but do
I look as if I care? *g*
The first thing to make sure of is that there is a supply of good sharp blades.
My preference is a surgical-steel-bladed Stanley-knife variant (called the
Nack knife, available from Oakthrift in this country (England) and it's
US patent number 5604984 if you're in another country but are still interested)
although scalpels are pretty much de rigeur from what I've read (but hell,
I like to be different) and I believe you can get them from Mediquip (details
at here and again it's UK based, they'll ship anywhere but you can probably
find them cheaper locally, it's just that I don't think this would be complete
without at least one link to a medical supplier ). Lancets have been mentioned
many times, but I'm going for a good sustainable wound here, not a pinprick.
Right, I'll assume you all know about safety practices and first aid (if
not, what the hell are you thinking about cutting someone for?) So lets just
go for the incision. My top tips for good places to cut are pretty much the
standards: shoulders, upper arms, back, chest, stomach. Basically you're aiming
for somewhere that's not too fatty (you want a place with more muscle for
the obvious medical reasons). Places others recommend but I always avoid include
forearms/wrists (too visible for my liking) thighs (some may find it sensual
or some such, but I'd prefer to be able to walk without ripping the wound
open) and of course the neck (can we say jugular and carotid? Have a guess
at what's the most efficient and guaranteed way to kill someone).
Now you've selected the area, you have to think about size. I mean both length
and depth (generally, the longer a cut is, the longer it takes to heal. Some
goes with depth of course, but no matter how long you make the cut a scratch
is just a scratch, whereas the depth is far more critical)
I think the rate of blood flow depends on three things: The area cut, the
depth of cut, and the amount of further damage done to the wound.
Firstly, areas are pretty obvious, needless to say the only areas I refuse
are anywhere near major vessels, and my arms (though the latter is purely
a vanity thing, I just don't want scars on my arms as it gives out the wrong
signals to casual passersby).
Secondly, depth. Very much dependent on how enamored of pain the giver is,
and how enamored of scars too. The deeper the faster obviously, and so more
blood will flow, but there is the danger of more blood coming out than you
can actually drink, thus the vamp cannot keep up, thus making one hell of
a mess (I've been there, I *know* it's not a good idea, no matter how appealing
it may sound)
And finally, further damage. A little scratch will always be just that, nothing
you can do to keep it bleeding, platelets form PDQ. As for keeping the blood
going, long (3"+) cuts are good, as you can concentrate on one section,
then move to another, and then back, and so forth "balancing" the
damage. Most effective ways are (in order of most effective first):
-Digging upper teeth into wound, using lower teeth to anchor on an undamaged
part of flesh, literally ripping the wound open (also works vice versa of
-Biting area around the wound, causing more blood to go to damaged areas,
causing more blood to go to the wound.
-Digging fingernails into the wound to rip it open.
-Massaging the wound by grabbing the skin around it and first pulling the
wound apart, then squashing it close repeatedly.
-Re-cutting over the wound with sharp implement. Highly dangerous, I really
don't recommend this to anyone no matter how masochistic, as it's impossible
to gauge just how much further in the wound the blade is sinking. And it
hurts like nothing else I've ever experienced.
PART II: WHY DONATE? (OR... WHY SHOULD I LET THIS
FREAK SUCK MY BLOOD?)
--this is more for possible donors or would-be donors than existing ones--
Bloody (sic) good question.
It's the reason I donate. I find blood-drinkers/real-vampires/sanguinarians
(call them what you will) to be a great source of satisfaction for masochistic
impulses/needs. Admittedly, I'm a masochist with a special obsession about
bleeding and knives, but the theory's the same. If you enjoy pain, you really
can't do much better. They do just about anything you want, they have no choice,
the thirst/hunger/whatever kicks in as soon as the blood starts flowing. Manipulative
yes, but also fun! *g*. Not that I'd condone such things of course. Now for
the downside: They won't always be there, if you're in this purely for the
pain (as I am), building up a relationship is just a waste of time, but some
may find that view offensive. And can you really trust to your own safety
given you're only going to meet this person so they can torture you/cut you?
Even in a "nice" way?
Allegedly, friendship (or a sexual relationship) are great reasons to
donate from the blood-drinkers point of view. They already know you, they
already trust you, and vice versa. This could possibly put a strain on the
relationship itself admittedly, but that's really not something I would comment
on. For the psi-vamps of course a good friend will give off nicer, more familiar
energies (or so I'm told). The downside? It could ruin the relationship for
both sides, and the vamp stands to lose out anyway if they attempt to get
a friend to donate and they take it the wrong way.
I'm not going to say much about this as it has no relevance to my donations
whatsoever. Suffice to say I'm sure there are some who can turn the feeding
into some sort of ritual or spell. In which case, I believe blood magick is
allegedly one of the most powerful forms.
Oh yes, what a wonderful fantasy it is. Beautiful creatures of the night,
coming to feed from you, taking you into their warm embrace.......bollocks.
They're just people who drink blood, no real difference between them and any
other blood fetishist from the donor's point of view (or MY point of view
anyway). Seriously, if you're going to donate for this reason you're in for
a big disappointment. And if the blood-drinker in question has allowed you
to carry on believing this, s/he's beyond contempt. (Note: I do know of one
that DID put himself in this situation, strung a poor girl along in the hope
she'd be "turned")
PART III: THE DOWNSIDES
As much as many would hate to admit it, there are definite downsides that
must be considered to donation.
These I've put in no particular order other than as they popped into my head.
Firstly, scarring. Yes, there are things you can do to minimize the scarring,
and yes, if you do as I do all scars will be in places easily hidden with
a t-shirt, and yes, they will eventually fade away (dependent on your body's
healing properties). BUT they will be there, they are inevitable. If you don't
want scars, don't donate. There are numerous ways of getting away with it,
but I discount these methods for the following reasons:
Lancets. Sure, tiny little holes, no visible scars. But is the vamp really
going to get enough blood that way? To get a single reasonable cuts worth,
the lancet's going to have to go in at least a couple dozen times. Don't
forget, the smaller the wound, the less blood comes out and the quicker
it heals. Plus my aforementioned ways to prolong blood flow will have little
or no success with lancet wounds.
Needles. I don't like them. Other than that, a lot of people don't like
them. Other than that, they're extremely dangerous in untrained hands. I
personally hate even letting trained nurses stick me with them. Admittedly,
you'll get enough blood, but it's hardly romantic/painful/intimate (delete
as applicable for your reasons for donating) is it?
Making tiny little scratches instead of proper wounds. Again, lack of blood
flow is the main problem here. To get the same amount, a lot more cuts are
going to be made. I'd rather have a shitload of separate cuts anyway regardless
of size, but I'm not talking about preference, I'm talking about sating
a hungry/thirsty vamp .
So that's the scars themselves. What about the consequences of scars?
Example a) You are in a relationship with a vamp and pick up a shitload
of scars. You then break up. You enter another relationship (a vanilla one).
S/he doesn't like the scars. In fact s/he freaks about them. What a lovely
Example b). (true story) You're at a heavy metal concert. You're in the
mosh pit. You're sweating like hell. You take your t-shirt off, and the
rest of the night get shitloads of stares and comments about the scars.
Admittedly, it didn't bother me, but maybe it would thinner-skinned types.
Scarring aside, what about other reciprocations? Explaining to people about
this particular act/fetish/scene/whatever you wish to call it has been........interesting
for me. Some are abhorred at the idea, some are freaked out but come around,
some take it in their stride, some take the piss. The point is, can you know
how someone else will react? What about your parents? What would they think
that you allow yourself to be mutilated and have another human drink your
blood? What about your boss? Having problems at work because of the other
major drawback (see below)? And so on.
The final one.....blood loss. It's a very VERY dangerous thing. I've lost
so much in a single feeding session I've passed out, felt faint, blacked out
(but still remained conscious... imagine one of those head rushes you get
when you've been laying down for a while and then suddenly stand. Then multiply
that by 100), been unable to stand unaided, and various other nasties. Luckily,
I have a great healing system and was fully recovered in under 24 hours. How
about you? Also it should be noted that prolonged periods of intense blood
loss can be very damaging, the constant strain on the body to replenish lost
blood, not to mention the repeated shocks of the wounds themselves, can very
Another true story. I acquire some nasty wounds. They stop bleeding. I go
to bed. I go to work the next day. I (along with 4 colleagues) shift about
3 tonnes of tower equipment. Guess what happens to the wounds? I'll put it
this way: I had to peel the t-shirt off my back at the end of the day because
the dried blood had stuck it down.
Everyone who involves themselves in bloodletting or bloodplay is urged to educate themselves in all aspects of it. The best way to do this is to sample a wide range of factual knowledge, opinions and points of view and decide what is applicable or useful to you. If you're not able or willing to do this you shouldn't be playing with sharp things.